Sunday, February 28, 2010

So much has happened.

I miscarried out baby 2 weeks ago. It was so hard. So hard to get so excited for 10 weeks that you're going to have another baby...and then you're not.

Chris has been gone for what seems like forever! But we only have 31 days left. 23 days left until the kids and I head out for our big road trip on the way to see him!
I've knocked my Florida trip down to just over 1 week...Long stessful story there.

And then we are on out way to San Antonio, TX!

I'm trying to decide if I want to cut my hair or not today.
And I've also been trying to pick a good car out for us to get. I need to get it by next weekend. The Durango isnt holding up anymore :(

Saturday, January 30, 2010

To work, Or not to work?

Well, everytime I leave my kids, they give me a huge guilt trip! "One more hug, mommy!", "Mommy, don't go!", etc... it's horrible. Julieann cried for forever when I dropped her off at my friends house on Thursday. It sucked, and all I could do cause I was running late was drop them off and leave.
But now with our taxes done, and getting that tax return, I am comfortable not working anymore... Technically, I was working 3-4 days a week for a little less then $100 a week. Which I paid $80 towards the car and the rest in the gas tank. But as soon as we get the return, it will catch us up, and have left over until we get Chris' first pay. But I HATE quitting, or putting in a 2 weeks notice, etc... But sometimes, it has to be done. So maybe, depending on who's manager tonight... I'll put my 2 weeks in. Idano... Hopefully I will be able to talk to Chris tomorrow and we can talk about it :)

Anywho, so do I work for little money, make my kids sad, or what?

Friday, January 29, 2010

10 days down and a surprise phone call!

Yesterday, I got home from work, and we were here for about 20 minutes when my husbands ringer came over my phone... I thought it was a fluke! lol I answered it within 2 seconds all giddy- and it was him! My hubby was calling me!!!
He said he loves it so far and although it's really hard work, his dril sgt. is awesome, and he can't wait to introduce his family to him at graduation! He got a 5 minute pass to give me a call and give his BCT address. He's in the Delta company Pitbulls :) I'm proud of him cause they are 'known' as the bad asses of BCT. He didnt have to stay in a half way bct for fat camp... which would surprise me if he did since he is so athletic!
So I'm 10 days down... 60 to go :)
sooo happy what when I wake up tomorrow, there are only 59!
We miss him, but things are going pretty good, and I'm glad he got to call so I can tell him that. He's really doing the best thing for our family. I'm soo glad we finally have a future because of the Army!
I <3 my Private!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Today is a day I wish I could talk to him.

Well, Christopher had his first big dentist appointment. He had to get 1 crown, and 2 caps put on some back teeth. So they gave him this medicine thats suppose to make him all drunk and loopy feeling. Well, 10 minutes later and on time, he started practically falling into the toy he was playing with! So I held him and he just starred at the rainforrest mural like it had psycadelic paintings on it! lol It took 1/2 an hour for the procedure. And when they came to get me, I could hear him yelling at the nurses! The DR told me he was an angry drunk! lol But once I got into the room to hold him for the 10 minutes longer he needed to be there he was fine. So he did fine through out the rest of the day and could even eat a bowl of cereal around 4pm.
Next up was I had issues with my mother in law. But I dont want to go into detail of the situation on the internet... I'll just give the gist of they said they would help babysit the kids while Chris was gone, but now they can't. So I have to figure out a different schedule with Kohl's so I can still work without having to give up my shifts! Fortunatly, I have some great friends and one was able to babysit and another would have but her son had his hour of school in the middle of when I needed her.
I just broke down and was crying over it. I am so thankful that my parents understand and are able to watch the kids on the weekends while I work. Also thankful that my sister and brother in law are going to be taking the kids 1 weekend a month. I honestly don't know what I will do without them! I'll miss them since I spend so much time with them and none (but work hours) without them. I care for them 24/7... honestly... what would I do not caring for them?!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Moving down range today.

I've copied the following from the military.com website:

Schedules & Timelines - Army
There are 10 weeks in Army Basic Training. The breakdown is as follows:

ZERO WEEK: RECEPTION
This is where your transformation for civilian life to the Army world begins—from bidding farewell to your civilian clothes, getting your Army haircut and getting ready to become physical fit.

WEEK 1: FALL IN
Once Reception Week completes, it's now time to get down to business, lots to learn in a short period of time, new rules, regulations and processes involved in being in the Army. Classroom instruction begins

WEEK 2: DIRECTION
Your new mentor is your Drill Sergeant, leaving the classroom for the field, it's time to test your physical and mental endurance. Possible things to learn this week are map reading and first aid

WEEK 3: ENDURANCE
During week 3 you will have to rely on your team mate and dig deep inside yourself, it is time to start the physical and mental challenges of the simulated combat scenarios.

WEEK 4: MARKSMANSHIP
The M16A2. It is the standard issue weapon of the U.S. Army. You will be taught everything there is to know about this weapon. Learning to shoot a rifle is more than pulling the trigger. Marksmanship courses will teach you not only the proper way to hold a weapon, but also how to breathe and shoot from many different positions

WEEK 5: TRIALS
Hope you were paying attention in week 4 because you will use all that information this week to pass the Basic Rifle Marksmanship Qualification Course and the Fit to Win Obstacle Course. You will be challenged both mentally and physically.

WEEK 6: CAMARADERIE
You platoon is only as strong as its weakest member, this week you will learn to count on your fellow trainees. Bonds are formed and confidence is gained as trust exercises are implemented.

WEEK 7: CONFINDENCE
Confidence in yourself and your platoon has been growing steadily over the past seven weeks. Hand grenade training; live fire exercises; foot marching; and overall physical fitness will all be tested in the Confidence Course.

*WEEK 8: COMBAT SKILL DEVELOPMENT
An additional week was inserted at Week 8 to provide more time for developing combat skills. The Army will be testing this extended training from Nov. 07 to Jan. 08.
Read the full “Army Extends Training” article to learn more.

WEEK 9: VICTORY FORGE
All the miles have been marched and the obstacle left behind. It's time to put everything you've learned up to this point to the real test: a three-day field retreat to Victory Forge. This is the true and final test of your skills and spirit – your chance to prove you have what it takes to be a U.S. Army Soldier.

WEEK 10: GRADUATION
Your family and friends have made the journey to watch you graduate. All your hard work has led you to this day. This is the day you have been dreaming of, the day you become a U.S. Army Soldier.


He was pretty excited last night after he got his ACUs. He even sent me a picture which I was SOOO happy to get! I've already added it to facebook, it's my phone's main image, out desktop image, and I changed his FB profile picture to it :)
We miss him so much, but I'm sooo excited for him and can't wait to start getting his letters any day now!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

I miss him.

So far, we've got through 4 whole days without seeing each other. only 9 weeks to go! lol
Tonight, after I got home from work, the kids and I traced our hands, and they colored theirs while I wrote on mine... front side I wrote a 'remember when' thing, and the backside I wrote what I miss doing with him on the particular day (sunday-saturday). We each had 7 hands. and I named our hand books "Raise your hand if you miss Daddy" (Husband for mine). They turned out pretty cute and I really hope he enjoys them! The kids LOVED coloring their hands and did a great job.
Tomorrow I am watching Shyann (our neice) and taking the kids to the mall to play. My friend Heather is going to pal around with us too :)

Chris just called me for 1/2 a minute. He's going to call him parents for the first time right no then call me back.
I guess he hasnt had his dental yet... he gets that done tomorrow along with issuing his ACUs. But he already has all his PT clothes as thats what they've been living in for the last 4 days. He did more PT today too :)

I miss my husband so much, but I'm still doing pretty good with being lonely. But then again, I'm only 4 days in... and this is when the biggest adjustment is taking place.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I've been lucky!

As Chris has been in the reception part of BCT, I have been able to talk to him at least 2 minutes every night! :) It makes me sooo happy and changes my day when I hear his ringer come over my phone! So far he's had his hair cut, dental, physical, blood work, shots, and has been issued some things.
Today I worked 12pm-5pm and my mom babysat the kids. Then Jon, Tracy, Shannon, & Scott all came over for just some family time.

Chris' mom went in the hospital last night and she has an inflammed pancrease. She should be okay as long as she no longer drinks alcohol. I felt so bad telling Chris this over the phone, he plans on calling her tomorrow and making her want to improve alot of things so she can come see him graduate basic training.

Friday, January 22, 2010

First day without him

Yesterday was my first complete day without Chris. I was doing great all day until he called and we went to hang up... I started sobbing. I didnt know when I could next talk to him. He called me immediatly back and I think he felt my pain and he asked if I was crying.. I of course was.. lol
But I have been doing good otherwise. Insted of me calling him when one of the kids does something or I have to tell him something, I now write to him right away so I dont forget. Like today, Julieann peeled her own orange AND put on her own (well...they were mine) socks. And christopher took a great smile picture for him.
I can't imagine how we will feel the first time we can send out letters and recieve the others and just cry reading them.. just the emotions from getting it out of the mail box will be overwhelming! I will probley sit in the car right next to the mail box reading them...lol :)
I scheduled my first OB appt yesterday. It will be on February 17th. 25 more days until I can see our baby! I will be 10 1/2 weeks at it.
Thats about it for now. I have to give the kids lunch then get them down for a nap so I can shower and get the kids to my inlaws and myself to work.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Gone to BCT





Today we saw Chris off to BCT. We got to hang out with him at the MEPS station in Lansing from 9am-1pm. We saw him sworn in too! Then he gave us hugs and kisses and we said our quick good-byes. The kids havent really been asking about where he is... But everytime Christopher gets into trouble he says "I dont like you, mommy- I want Daddy, he can come home" :(
I am so proud of him! I will miss him so so so much.
I talked to him a few hours ago and he was having flight issues. So I dont know if he's on a plane on his way down there now, or if he's still in Chicago in a hotel room. Definatly going to keep my phone near at all times!!!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Our last weekend.

Tonight is the start of our last weekend together for 7 months.
We are going over to my brother and sister-in-laws house tonight for dinner and their last night with them.
Saturday night, we are having people over for pizza and poker.
Sunday, I have to work for a few hours, then Chris' family and us are going out to dinner at Outback.
Monday, I plan on spending alone time with Chris for just a few hours.
Tuesday...we have to be at the recruiters at 3pm for last minute paperwork. Then have to be at MEPS by 6pm. We are going to take our bathing suits to hopfully get in our last family moment before he leaves on Wednesday.

Wednesday we have to be back in lansing to see him sworn in and then see him off to the plane.

Everytime I think about these next days, I just break down and cry. I know there's a good mix of pregnancy emotions and hormones... but still, I'm sad and happy at the same time.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Damn you Taco Bell!

Everyday that goes by... I find myself thinking about taco bell.
Oh wonderful Taco bell, with your taco flavored meat, shredded lettuce, diced tomatos, and savory sour cream.
Sometimes chicken...sometimes beef...sometimes steak.
Oh Taco Bell, how you never dissapoint. The crunch of your hard shell, the easy bite into your soft shell, and then there is the combo shell, 1 hard, 1 soft... the best of both worlds.
Oh dearest Taco bell... if only you delivered. Instead I have to take advantage of my husband being here for a few more days and have him get you for me and baby. Christopher loves you too, Taco bell.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

picked up the ever important insurance papers today...

Today was a 'fun' day. Went on some errands to pick up insurance paperwork, it's nearly feeling official, lol!
Then to Meijer to get random supplies for dinner. I made my first ever from scratch soup!
'Monteray jack cheese soup with chicken'
it was easy... chicken broth, 4 bonless skinless chicken breast-cooked and cubed, milk, green onions, tomatos, green chilis, and a few small randoms things.
It was great! I also got a fresh made italian bread loaf to go along with it. We ate 3 hours ago and I am still full!
The kids have been fun today too... Christopher has been having MAJOR issues going to bed. He just doesnt want to! He tries everything within his power to stay up and get out of his room.
But Julieann is awesome at going to bed, as usual. I feel bad for her cause he's screaming to us as she's trying to fall asleep. It just doesnt work...lol

Chris leaves in 6 days. This is his last Tuesday with us for 26 weeks. It's hitting pretty hard that everything is becoming a reality that I'm going to be on my own in a VERY short time. How can I live without him? Who am I going to fight with? Who am I going to love? Who will sleep with me and keep me warm?
I can do it... I kinda have to.

1st blog: 1 week till Chris leaves & I'm 5 weeks pregnant

For reasons that will soon become obviouse, I am starting a blog.
My husband, Chris leaves for the army in just 1 week.
We found out on the morning of his going away party that I am pregnant.
Baby 'C' is due September 13th, 2010. We're going to call the bean Baby C because that will be it's first initial. We have several names already picked out... and we each have a favorite which happens to be the other's least favorite.
My favorites are Boy- Charlie, Girl- Charlotte.
Chris' favorites are Boy- Carson/Carter, Girl- _______.
We are hoping for a boy, but boy/girl twins would be my #1 pick!

I feel so bad/sorry that our other children, Christopher 3.5 years and Julieann 2 years have NO idea what is ahead for our family in the next year. Here is a quick preview of everything we're expecting to happen.

January- Chris leaves for the army
Feburary- Miss Chris and adjust to being a "single" mom
March- Get new vehicle...a mini-van! lol
-Start 1 month road trip -Boston, NYC, DC
April- See daddy graduate basic training for only 3 days, finish road trip- Ft. Jackson, SC, Florida (2weeks), Atlanta, Kentucy, Home
-Chris starts AIT in Ft Sam Houston, TX
-Chris' 32nd birthday
May- My 26th birthday- possibley flying down to see Chris
June-
July- Christopher's 4th birthday
-Chris graduates AIT on the 27th
August- move to whatever base they tell us to go to
September- Baby C due
October-
November- Julieann's 3rd birthday
December- Our 5 year anniversary

I'm very thankful that we have the chance to live with my parents, my sister and brother-in-law have offered to take the kids 1 weekend a month, and that all our other family lives so close. I want to continue to work at KOHLs parttime at least until we leave for out month long road trip so that we have gas money, food money, fun money, etc.. and I want to use the discount to buy some things for the house. If not, mom gets 15% off coupons in the mail all the time and that's the same as the employee discount.

That's about it for now. I'm going to start taking my bi-weekly pregnancy belly pictures next week.

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